The road ahead
So, everyday life continues pretty much as normal. Like so many other big thoughts I've come across earlier, this is no different - it won't change the outcome of the next day. I still hate the everyday disrespect at work, I still hate the fact that so many people think I'm their enemy or opponent. Oh, don't trust my words or feel regret. If you hate me, do go on hating me. Strange as it may seem, I do believe in personal freedom. If you hate, then you hate. I didn't cause it, I didn't start the hatred in you, I cannot end it either. If you gain from it, or feel better hating me than accepting me, then do that. I'm still the same on my view of hatred, as there is only one I truly despise. There's people I disagree with, but I don't wish them bad in the end, there is but one person whom I truly dislike to the end. Only one enemy, and perhaps that's why the effect is so strong. Not the old me, or this "new" me knows really why just that. There's guesses, but I suppose it takes an enemy of many talents to create this need in me to just destroy. One would have to act as a friend, be a thief and a liar. That one would have to turn others against me, would have to take refuge among the innocent, would have to live in continuous deception, would have to fight against all the principles that I appreciate or at least accept. In the end, this enemy would have to live the life of speaking joyful and creative thoughts, and the life of destroying those very thoughts. So, Kyuu couldn't figure out that question any better than the old me. Kyuu could help me a bit in seeing things better, and I suppose that did some improvement to everyday life, perhaps even work or relationships. Kyuu gave me one more piece to my life. Just a small thing maybe, something others have achieved in other ways long before. Maybe it was quite meaningless, even to me when I think about it. But this was my way of doing something meaningless. And I shouldn't forget the part that reflects on what people see. I wear my bandanna because I am Kyuu. I do need to have two new ones made though, and maybe plan some decoration. Would a bit of green look that bad? I guess I'm thinking of Link or Yahiko again. These are also things that Kyuu created, new little puzzles in my head. But hey, bottom line, my name's a bit more unique now, I finally wrote a bit again - specifically this text, and I feel maybe just a little bit more sure of myself. No big deal, and certainly you'll agree - assuming that you didn't just jump to the last part - that reading this far was a waste of time. If you knew nothing, you still know close to nothing. If you knew something, you don't know much more. And if you don't care, you still don't. Take a look in your life Push the door open wide Find your friend, ask her why Take it easy, go walk Need a friend, need some fun? Need his love, need his touch? Need some a vision, some light? Need to write it down all? Be my Kyuu, Be me Kyuu I'm tired... took me five hours to write all this text and another two more to destroy (most of) the typos. One more cup of tea and then I'm off to bed.
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